semakin susah

sementara yang lain berpesta, aku kat bilik 4 segi.
tah mane sume org pegi.
jalan yang terbentang di hadapan mata kelihatan berliku-liku.
pandangan terhad, apa yang mendatang apa pun tak tawu.
semua nya tidak kene.
mungkin lebih seronok kalau bersama rakan berbanding aku.
tape lah. sekali lagi dinding menjadi teman setia.
kalau masa bole pusing mcm u turn kerete. cari celah pusing je.
tapi kehidupan terlalu besar.
pusingan u turn adalah mustahil.
pusingan roda adalah hakiki.
biarlah.
aku pun dah muak bermukah dengan dinding.
tapi dinding tak penah komen apa2.
kau?
rakan hiburan pilihan di hati.
mungkin no string attached pilihan terbaik.
ah pikirkan bende ni satu ape pun tak jadi.
stoned dengan gulu-gula getah lagi syiok.
kenyal pun kenyal. gigit kuat lepas geram.


















hi nak kawan dgn saya?

pelamin angan ku musnah

tak sangka betul. buat penat setia tugggu.
rupanya gua tunggu kucing bertanduk. sia sia.
ade ke patut die kahwin dgn org lain.
sedih? tak
sakit hati? menggelodak dara eh salah darah.
bole plak lu anta kad jemputan.
eleh saje nak tayang le tu.
nasib baik gua tabah.
hari yang dinanti sudah tiba.
agak gagah jugak langkah kaki ni umpama nak betempur di medan perang.
wah kau. senyum sampai nak tecabut bulu jembut.
suke la tu kawin. gatal sangat.
prmpn tu?
oklah. muka samar2. tp yang pasti senyum lebar.
merah bibir. amboi pegang2 tangan nampak.
aku tak tawu kenapa aku bole tengok dengan tabah.
woaaaa kire macam superwoman in scene.
tetibe rasa mcm ditolak sesuatu dari belakang.
jatuh handphone aku bawah katil.













rupanya mimpi.
cilake punye mimpi. habis ranap handphone aku.
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz..... tarik selimut tido balik.
mimpi blue lagi best. bye

lebuh utara selatan

rasa nak jerit sampai tekluar anak tekak

hujung sana hujung sini.

malas nak harap bende yang tak pasti.

kau tak faham aku pun tak faham.

kat dalam ni rasa macam ade jarum cocok-cocok.

kau ape tawu.

terasa nak nyanyi

*nyanyi dalam toilet*
lagu ni main ulang2 dalam minda gua.

Everybody's laughing in my mind
Rumors spreading 'bout this other guy

Do you do what you did, what you did with me?
Does he love you the way I can?
Did you forget all the plans that you made with me?
'Cause baby, I didn't

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me
That should be me

You said you needed a little time for my mistakes
It's funny how you use that time to have me replaced
Did you think that I wouldn't see you out at the movies?
Whatcha doing to me?

You're taken' him where we used to go
Now if you're trying to break my heart
It's working 'cause you know

That, that should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that should be me

I need to know should I fight for our love or disown?
It's getting harder to shield this pain in my heart, ooh

That should be me holding your hand
That should be me making you laugh
That should be me, this is so sad
That should be me, that should be me

That should be me feeling your kiss
That should be me buying you gifts
This is so wrong, I can't go on
'Til you believe that that should be me, ooh

Holding your hand, that should be me
The one making you laugh, oh baby
Oh, that should be me, yeah

That should be me, giving you flowers
That should be me, talking for hours
That should be me, that should be me
That should be me

Never should've let you go
I never should've let you go
That should be me
Never should've let you go
That should be me

Never should've let you go
Never should've let you go
That SHOULD BE ME



justin bieber <3
one and only

can i cry now?

mula suka my baby

teman? babylamborghini kini jadi teman tawa tangis.
terasa tenang bila di dalam.
pandu tanpa hala tujuan.
keliru kecamuk.
salah siapa?
ego?
virus yang membunuh umpama cancer.
silent killer no 1 di dunia.
sunyi?
iya.
tabah?
cuba.
senyum?
paksa.
pergi?
pedih.
jauh?
susah.
percaya?
blur.
tangis?
selalu.








gagal?
mengalah.

hati rabak poket rabak

5 hari lalu gua pegi jalan kat lu. tp lu tade hati pun jalan kat gua.
gua poket koyak derr. gua ingt lu ada hati rupanya lu ada jantung.
gua ingt lu paham rupa nya lu dungu.
lu beza.
lu pk terus gua pk kona baring.
gua semangat lu empty.
gua da tada mood nak jalan kat lu.
gua nak berak.
blah.

hitam

cuaca kian terik.
terbayang swimming pool. oh seronok nya.
woah cuti lama.
tapi bosan juga dah tak tawu nak buat apa.
bertemankan basikal. ku putarkan kaki.di pagi hari.
panas terik do. hitam sudah :)